That wasn’t the last time I fell in love, even though I was sure I knew better. The next was Pedro. Oh, I was much more cautious to always remember “he is who I’ve seen him to be, however, I haven’t seen everything yet.” Surely, it didn’t matter that he was charming, tall, dark, and handsome. There would come a night, after a year of cruising together, romance, and friendship, when the dark side would manifest in a fit of jealousy. That night I could have lost my life as he reared back to put my head through a wall. That’s when I discovered the power of prayer. I quickly thought, “God help me!” and a small still voice inside my head spoke these words, “act like you’re not afraid.” A power rose up in me as I boldly declared the words “get off of me!” Pedro’s fist stopped a fraction of an inch from my nose and redirected its power into the wall beside my head. That night I had a clear encounter with a higher power and amazing grace. The next day that power would reveal Himself as the God of Love. My life was changed forever.
I still had a lot to learn, though. I fell in and out of love many times but that small still voice was always there reminding me there was something greater for me if I would look in a different place, a place you can’t see. The Kingdom of Love was inside of me all the time. I discovered I had a heavenly Father who loved me like no man ever could, including my earthly father who had a distorted idea of what true love meant. My heavenly Father had been showing me for years all the wrong places I had been looking but I just wasn’t listening to Him. It was time I started.
My spiritual journey was just beginning when I thought it was time to settle down, get married, and be serious about this calling. I would go to church, study my bible, be a respectable married woman and change careers from being an entertainer to being a minister of music. What a wonderful life that would be. I picked a guy who was not so tall, but oh so dark and handsome. In fact, he is only about 5’5 or so. He says, “I’m tall, I’m just wound up tight, ha!” He is a Music teacher by degree but a business man by career choice. He loves music as much as I do and only wished he was making a living like me. When he proposed to me he promised he would take care of me and support my career. Music to every girl’s ears. Women want security. Men want something else.
