Could this be him? Am I meant to meet him now? So soon?
So many thoughts are swarming through my head. Ever since my two-year breakup back in November, I really truly didn’t think that things would be able to get any worse. I still remember hearing about the first time he was with another girl after we broke up … it completely tore me apart. At that point I finally realized that I had to get over him and I had to move on. There was no used to caring about someone who stopped caring about you a long time ago.
My expectations were set so high for the next guy I would ever date and I told myself I wouldn’t open myself up again for a long time until the right person came along …
Could I have been given another chance?
He walked into my life and I don’t know what happened. Feelings came slow at first, but started clicking when we started spending more time with each other. He came at the point in my life where I needed someone the most. I call him my angel who caught me when I fell to lowest and hardest point of my life.
He is moving away to the city in a couple weeks to take a new job and I will still be here. A new beginning for him and I. We will lead different lives and become different people.
The point that we are in right now is that we’re trying so hard to get to know each other that it feels like a rush to do all these things before he leaves. We both know from that point on, it would be a long distance relationship.
Long distance relationships … that’s in its own whole category. I think trust is the main issue when it comes to that, as well as not growing apart because of living two completely different lives. How do those couples do it? Is love enough to keep it going?
I want it to work when he moves away, but we are not even official right now, nor are we in “love.” But I hold onto the idea that he was meant to be in my life right now, and I am afraid I will regret it if I let him go.
He has been a great influence on me. We’re both on similar career paths, and he’s making me a better person in more ways that I can say. He’s everything I have ever wanted and more. Is it possible to be so lucky to meet him so soon?
It’s interesting to look back at the last article I wrote, and to see how distraught I was. At that time I didn’t think I could ever get better and nothing could be worse. I couldn’t do anything everyday except think about the breakup. I know that was definitely one of the hardest things I have ever gone through in my life, but now looking back at it, I realize how much I’ve grown as a person and how this was really just a test and obstacle for me to go through to become a stronger person. My advice to anyone that has gone through something in their life where you think you could never be happy again ... I’m telling you from the bottom of my heart that things always get better with time. I promise you that.
“I believe that everything happens for a reason.
People change so that you can learn to let go,
things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right,
you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself,
and sometimes good things fall apart,
so that better things can fall together.”—Marilyn Monroe
