There is this really great website where crafters can sell items that they have created. Actually have great quality pictures of all types of items! While browsing through this expansive arcade of individualism, I realized that I am by no means an "original" at crafting like I labeled myself to be a long time ago. Not even a half decent one. People out there are so creative, original and their work looks beautiful! Me-I'm always "looking". "Looking" for inspiration, what a joke! What a joke I am too! I have a room full of fabric and craft material and what for? All it really seems to do is depress me. So now the plan is to haul it all out and I do mean HAUL and trash it! That's like trashing myself out too. That really hurts but may be it will set me free. This has always been part of the identity given to myself. Take that title away and what is left is wife, mother, employee, dog mother-care giver. No friends (not the daily chat partner or weekly for that matter). Could this be a problem?
Okay then, that's the plan. Get rid of all this because all this time I thought I had a special talent of being creative. We will implode and continue to implode until there is nothing left of that belief. My world will be reduced a lot from what it is now. A switch has been flipped and the lights have burned out. All the stickers are expired and no longer renewable. There was a time I thought I had some smarts but compared to my recent discovery I know I have no such thing. May be soon I will find and explore a new part of me.
