I am writing this about seven minutes after having experienced a panic attack.
Negative thoughts flooding my mind,
Dizzy,
Just breathe, breathe,
Chest tightening
A phone call to my psychiatrist friend so that she can assure me I am not having a heart attack,
What is death like?
Hot flashes,
Breathe,
I am so tired, so tired of feeling these symptoms. I open my journal as tears drop onto the pages. I scribble words like, “Help me God, I am so scared.”
I realize I have a decision to make …
I then choose. I write, “I can do this. It’s a decision I make. I can do it. I am strong. I feel no fear! I am a spiritual warrior! I am going to use this to help others. I am a spiritual warrior! I can do this. God is here with me. God is inside me. I am calling to you God. I am ok. I am safe. I am in God’s hands.”
